Only thinking about making this blog post makes it ridiculous. The title of this post has so much drama in it that it's like I'm writing about 'days without arms' or something. It's like I'm writing about another universe, which might actually be true? But I really have to write on my blog, I'll continue updating my blog!
For the past 3 years after starting up my computer I clicked first on the MSN icon and then on the Flyff icon (not always but... mostly?). When I start my computer now I click on MSN and wander around with my mouse. What to click next? It's just a strange feeling, that I forget something. I sound like a serious Flyff addict now but what do you expect? For years I logged on Flyff every day. I said hello to the guild and mostly someone would reply. We would have a chat, about Flyff things mostly, and then hang around in arena or train a character. I spend my time guild chatting and hanging around on Flyff with friends there. It's not a surprise that I didn't quit for a long time just because I was afraid that I'd miss guild chat a lot. That I'd miss the social contacts I have/had on Flyff. I do chat a lot less now... but I'm not feeling lonely (yet). I still got a few people to chat with on MSN.
"It's my second day without Flyff today." I said to Aladdin on MSN yesterday. He was surprised. "Are you quitting?" "Yes." I said. "That's quite sad!" he said. "I'll miss you!" I made a grin. "But Aladdin... We barely talk to each other on Flyff, we always talk via MSN..." After a minute he said: "That's right... But it's still sad! Are you quitting for good? You are coming back... right?" I said that I was probably only taking a break. Unless I'd find a life. He laughed. "No. You won't. I'm your life!" Haha.
Aladdin.
I'm only taking a break, I'm quite sure of that... unless I find a life. But that just won't happen. Tuesday evening I sorted all my items out. I decided I'd train this exp event. I put all my power-ups on my Ringmaster, Neocrohero, so she'd be my support character. I put all my amps on NeocroHero and searched for Vital X and Activation (which is hard now the icons changed! Haha.) I logged out knowing I only needed my Champion set to train. I was totally ready to train. But I felt uneasy. The last weeks I already got torn apart between two feelings. On one side I wanted to train really badly and reach level 140. On the other side I just wanted to quit Flyff. When I searched the reasons for those two feelings I figured out I just needed a break.
The reason of quitting is that Flyff isn't the Flyff anymore that I used to love so much. Flyff changed a lot with the new amps and there are way too many exp events. Really, when were we WITHOUT exp event past months? There's like almost ALWAYS a kind of exp event going on this days, *potty mouth*? Most of the heroes this days are not the 'True Heroes' anymore where I talk about in my stories. When I started playing Flyff, Heroes were real Heroes. They put a lot effort in training up to level 121. They were admired by the other players and they were proud on themselves. The heroes of this days are amp hoes. They complain about exp even though they're using 5x amps. They ask me where Volcano is when they reach level 120. Additionally they're rude, think they're awesome and are annoying. All I can do is turn my head away and try to be ignorant
But now I face it... This is not the game anymore I loved to play. For players like me who never used amps, used the crappiest weapons they could find, who spend days training with low exp and died all the time (and lose exp by that, since blessings cost too much) it's not bearable. You can call me a complainer now, that's alright. I'm being a complainer now. Flyff started to go downwards after the level cap raised.
Training in Volcano.
And of course, I did have good... even great... times after that. The TwilightDentifrice of today really makes me happy. I'm so glad I managed to build such a group again, together with Dino at my side. Having him at my side makes me so happy too, he understands exactly what I'm trying to reach with TDF. Because of Twilight Dentifrice I managed to keep on playing, though I didn't really like the new features. I leveled to 125, used amps for the first time and reached level 129. I got help from someone who had always been a mysterious 'scary' Hero to me, SirSpeedy. Thanks to him I reached level 130 and I became a Slayer. My little NeocroHero got even more powers. Twilight Dentifrice grew and turned into a really popular guild. Since me and Dino actually didn't want that we bound it in, and turned TDF back into what it's meant to be... the group where I belong.
TwilightDentifrice.
But short said, I get so annoyed from the many Heroes around me that I just need a break. The reason I want to reach level 140 now is so I can beat them up in arena. To me... that's a really bad reason to continue playing. I need another reason to reach level 140, and I'll find a better reason to someday. It's a pain that I have to leave TDF behind because of this, but else nothing will change. Things need to change, I need to change, and then I'll come back. If TwilightDentifrice is still there then, I hope I can lead once again. If it's gone, I'll rebuild it.
Now, enough complaining. What have I done past days? It's surprising how many time I got now to do other things now since I refuse to start Flyff (time to write silly blog posts per example). I actually got myself quite addicted to Sims 3. Why, oh, why. It's such a silly game but I spend past days running around with Ricky in the Sims world. Got myself too many babies, been running into mummies in Egypt and got myself a villa at the Nile.
Last days it's also quite sunny outside, so I've been enjoying the sun too. I've been practicing guitar, pat the cats, reading and daydreaming in the sun. I've been too lazy to play on my Xbox since I'm at a boss in Deus Ex (my newest Xbox game). I don't look forward to get spam killed at that boss, so I didn't play on my Xbox past days!
Real table and soccer ball (and real empty lunch plate).
Real cat.
Real trees.
Real chickens.
If I wasn't sitting in the sun or playing Sims I was just chatting. So far I didn't have any withdrawal symptoms yet. We'll see how this continues...
Ps. If anyone reads this that doesn't have my e-mail, feel free to ask Dino or another TDF member for my e-mail adress so we can stay in touch!
